12/20/08

12/19/08

나이


바쁜 일상속에 나를 웃게 만든 친구의 이메일.
허허 웃고나서 생각해 보니 나는 해당사항도 별로 없는듯. 

세상을 이해하지 못해서 용감해지고 싶고
남자들을 이해하지 못해서 응석도 부리고 싶다. 
사랑에 목숨걸고 인생이 장미빛이라는 사실을 믿고 싶다. 

12/16/08

중경삼림


                                                                  w j

12/10/08

bitter and sweet

'happiness from the others will not last long enough to fulfill your happiness...'

one of my good past boy friend told me this basic thought and we had almost 6 years of relationship. most people(girls) might be hurt by what he said but it hit me that time and now I realized it again from deep in my heart.

He already knew this very simple knowledge at that time and it took me so long to really take it as mine. well, I'll say even though I understood it with my head at the moment I could feel some chemical reaction in my heart and I possibly did not want to believe in with my heart. 

I blame on him to tell me this fact and make me to be conscious of  it but at the same time this simple fact help me to get back to where I am although it is bitter and sweet....

how long should I have to be strong enough to be alone.




12/6/08

the reality of reality of reality of reality

Whatever I look at, I am astonished, surprised, and I do not know what I see. It is just as if reality were always behind a screen- and there is another...and yet another. But I have the impression or illusion that I am making progress every day. This is what stimulates me, as if one should at last get to the point of understanding the secret of life. And one continues, knowing very well that the nearer one gets to the "thing," the further it moves away....
It is an endless quest.



thinking of Lene Magritte...that reflection of reality of reality of reality...