12/10/08

bitter and sweet

'happiness from the others will not last long enough to fulfill your happiness...'

one of my good past boy friend told me this basic thought and we had almost 6 years of relationship. most people(girls) might be hurt by what he said but it hit me that time and now I realized it again from deep in my heart.

He already knew this very simple knowledge at that time and it took me so long to really take it as mine. well, I'll say even though I understood it with my head at the moment I could feel some chemical reaction in my heart and I possibly did not want to believe in with my heart. 

I blame on him to tell me this fact and make me to be conscious of  it but at the same time this simple fact help me to get back to where I am although it is bitter and sweet....

how long should I have to be strong enough to be alone.




4 comments:

Blue Bird said...

Happiness isn't something you experience; it's something you remember. But I know that someone wishes happiness to you as ever. You don't want it though...

romantika said...

혼자로써 강해지고 싶은 욕구가 이미 강하단 증거지. 정말 혼자서도 외롭지도 않고 힘들지도 않으면 정신적 문제가 있는걸거야
타인한테서 얻는 행복함과 충족감은 나도 사양할테야... 어차피 인간은 변질되기 마련이고 그런 기쁨은 길어봐야 몇년 정도겠지
그래서 오히려 상대에게 행복을 주는 역할이 피곤하지만 마음은 태평할지도...

sara said...

천사로 태어나고 싶다. 건축을 할 수 있는.

sara said...

요즘은 그냥 자고 싶다.